Lois,

How are you my little girl?
Are you feeling emotional and nostalgic again now that its that time of the year?
You fought hard, havent you? You think I dont know dont you? but darl I do.
Are you still mad at me? Do you doubt that I have forgotten about you? that you get the residual treatment and it give the best to others?
I know you didnt mean all that. I know you were venting on me because it was hard for you.

Hon. I know it might seem that way, like Im delaying my answers to your prayers.
But everyday Im counting my love. For you to come closer to me, for me to shape you - to the perfect fit to the answers to your prayers. Come on Trust your old man.
I know you try to tame your reasons and wild passions. I know your desire to tame your qualities and gifts to your understanding of 'Godleness". I appreciate your effort. I appreciate your heart. But dont forget this, I gave you that. That analyitical thinking, hippie spirit, adventurous free thinking soul. You took after me. You see.
All I see is me in you and darl, I am listening to your desires. I will make you to be a wise beautiful woman that I promised you before. I will use what you have. Dont you worry.
Your will may be weak and you get frustrated.
But I always see to the heart darling.

It has never changed since the day you were born 1984 October 31, just how beautiful you are. How much joy you give me.
For sure, there were rainy days this year huh,, lonely ones too.
I know sweetheart. I was there with you and in you. We will work on it and you will learn to deal with pain more and more.
But it is when you are weak that I am strong.
Keep a quite heart my love. My promises for you and Holy Spirit are your guarantee.
I will guide you, I want to do that.

Lastly, dont carry the guilt baggage. Lose it hon.
Dont feel sorry for your sins that you cant come to me.
I know your sins. I knew them well before you were born. but I justified you.
If you need to go back to that place of redemption again, if you still forget, if you stil cant believe. Always go back to the foot of the cross, Im there always.
I will renew mercy, forgiveness and grace. No matter how repetitive you may think it is.
I love meeting you there honey. No way will I get impatient.

Dont fight.
I didnt call you to be a warrior, I called you to be royal priest, a princess.
I will fight for you. I will be your knight.
I will come to save you.
Trust me. I do not fail.
It is for you. this christmas. It is for you.
You are my reason I came here in baby's body.
To reach you. To find you and reconcile you to me.
You are the my reason I died. I fought. I conquored.
It is for you and its already been done.
You dont have to fight. get your armour off and put on royal dress. Adorn youself with tiara.
It belongs to you.

Fear not, for I have redeemed you.
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
When you pass through the waters I will be with you and when you pass through the rivers they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire you will not be burned. The flames will not set you ablazed.

Since you are precious and honoured in my sight and because I love you,
I will give men in exchange for you and people in exchange for your life.
Nothing can separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus.
Not even your weaknesses.
Your shortcomings. Your pride or wasted heart.
You will walk through the flames and you will not be burned.
You will go to the sun-scortch land and you will not go thirsty.
In fact you will be a fountain of living water.
I will do this, and
I will not delay.

I love you my child.