So Im in Frankfurt, Germany now.
I’ll be travelling Germany and Czech Republic for a business trip.
Being here, I cant help but be
reminded of myself here 6 years ago.
Almost like the movie; Before sunset Before sunrise. You travel through time
and see how characters have changed, aged, matured through this condensed lense
of time.
Last time I was here, I was
this young, naive, hippe, frugal backpacker with so much curiosity and passions
oozing out of me. My life as I’ve had seen it in my head was just about to get
started. “Lois, the world traveler, developing world carer, a Lawyer,
God-lover.” I wasnt scared of anything. I wasn’t attached to anything either.
So many naive and untainted identities I hid behind and I loved being there.
Every bit of it. no matter how hungry I was, how uncomfortable my hostels were.
I loved every bit of a bite on baguettes, walks in the parks, getting lost in
the streets, taking photos, imagining what life could be. Sometimes that was
all I was doing; imagining all day, lost in the wonders of sexy cities like
Prague and Paris. Oh dear, How I miss myself then. I miss not the lost times,
or the travelling. I miss me, I miss who I was. What the exuberating youth had
allowed me to be- brave, naive, hopeful, energetic.
Not that Im not all that now. But its so surreal to be in a 5 star hotel, eating proper food and be taken around the city and seeing the city like that this time. The change of perspective and the standing I have now. And fair enough, I guess Im not as hopeful nor brave as I was 6 years ago.
I take vitamins, omega 3 and probably 3-4 other supplements to barely get through the day. Travelling has become a chore. But I gotta admit I do like this silence of my hotel room that I have totally to myself and to my thoughts. away from my desk and work. that I love. yah.
Not that Im not all that now. But its so surreal to be in a 5 star hotel, eating proper food and be taken around the city and seeing the city like that this time. The change of perspective and the standing I have now. And fair enough, I guess Im not as hopeful nor brave as I was 6 years ago.
I take vitamins, omega 3 and probably 3-4 other supplements to barely get through the day. Travelling has become a chore. But I gotta admit I do like this silence of my hotel room that I have totally to myself and to my thoughts. away from my desk and work. that I love. yah.
Am I stating the obvious? Of course you change with time. What did I expect?
There were colourful seasons of life during those past 6 years. I had the most painful and I had the most joyful. I was most independent. then I was completely dependent. It’ll probably be my most precious memory to take with me into my 30s and 40s and so on.
And there is
No regret.
Absolutely not.
Only reminiscence.
