Running

A shot from a run to hyun's house.

It's been a real long time since I've ran..

with music locked away in my ears

running on the concrete road, the sensation of things passing by fast, or maybe they are still and its me thats passing by in the pace of my own world

Another week went by really fast.

Im coming down with a cold again. Im not even surprised for getting sick again. Just saw the news on tsunami in Japan and got worried about Janet. Thankfully she is ok.

How can such a force sweep us away so fast? Its like Iv never seen something so powerful that can wipe away houses, roads, buildings, people, like they are little dusts. It reminds me how brief this life is once again and how small we are. Nothing should be taken for granted. My desires should be filtered, they should be a lot more simplier....for i cannot waste it on idle fury....

Yet....

If you have subconscious reminders, like dreams that haunt you and leave you totally defeated no matter how hard you try during the daylight..

does that mean my desires are still cluttered, does that mean Im fooling myself? And why do I wake up in total fear and disappointment? like I have made no progress......

My baby darling

I miss you, I see you in my dreams and Im so happy there.

And then i wake up petrified. why is it so hard?

Who would have known? I wouldnt have believed it anyway even if I was told.

Because you said so, so I believed...

so naive i know...

Your online, and then Im online.. but then you're offline.

and it makes me wonder....

whether you miss me at all

whether you savoured anything at all....

Better in time, the saying goes....

so i keep going..

but

i miss you my darling

foolishly, i miss you.